Most nights I am consumed with unbaiting excessive fear. Things like house fires, my health, dying in a fiery car crash…..Things that are scary yes, but not things I need to lose precious sleep over EVERY night. Tonight however is different, I have been thinking about my classmates, my best friend being one of them. We have had such a disconnection through the years that I don’t think we know who each other truly is anymore. I miss her greatly. I know that our bond is still within us. A bond as strong as ours growing up couldn’t be truly broken.
I’ve also been thinking about another class mate of mine, one who wasn’t my best friend or even particularly in my circle of friends. But tonight he is on my mind none the less. He has chosen (if that would be a proper word) to live a life that most Christians do not accept. This part is as it should be as it tells us in the bible. However, I have never read in my bible where it written not to love this person. It tells me to love my neighbor, there are no contingencies. Despite what the bible says some have disconnected themselves from him, people he loved, friends. And some do this in the name of Christianity. They look at this situation and only take from it this person’s sin and ignore that they are being hateful, judgmental, and in my opinion not showing God’s true face through themselves and their actions, sinning. Now this particular post is not to say that I am not a sinner myself. It is not to say that I have a complete clarity about this subject or any pertaining to God. It is to say however, that I believe in wonderful, loving, forgiving God. One who I think may have his work cut out for himself with me.
I have long abandoned the practice of New Year’s resolutions, due to never keeping them and the silliness of each promise. Usually these resolutions were to stop biting my fingernails, learn a new word daily, read more nonfiction, lose a little weight. Things that only bettered my appearance or social appearance of intelligence. But this year I want to make a resolution. I want every day to renew my spirit with God’s love and promise. I want to show the face of God to everyone I meet.
